Ramblings of a romantic heart

Yes, I am an eternal romantic...
I dream and wish for happy beginnings and blissful everafters.
I wish for a happy world.
I wish for love.

I also wish for lots of romance...even the corny kind.
You know where people would roll their eyes...
Yes, I wish for all of that.

Here is my wish list:

1. Celebrating every single event...from the time we first started dating, the time we first kissed, and the time we first said the 'L' word.
2. Getting corny gifts on above mentioned events/anniversaries. Gifts can be small or big depending on the intensity of the event. Red roses, cards, chocolates, large squishy bears, photoframes with loving pics, all of that.
3. Going for cheesy romantic movies and holding hands.
   
4. Going for really bad movies (and making out *wink*...for lack of anything else to do)
5. Dinner dates, dancing dates, picnics, trips together
6. Kissing and smiling at each other for no apparent reason except being with each other.
7. Getting cozy on a couch at home...with a movie, popcorn and cheap wine.
8. Calling each other at all times, or sending random text messages.
9. Wanting to be with each other at all times.
   
10. Saying "I love you" or " I miss you" at the end of every call, text message or even email.
    

Pondering, wondering and sighing!

It's all new, pretty and rosy now...
But, what if it wears off soon, and I'm left with nothing but affection and no one to shower it on?
What if I am left with this huge vaccuum, this space, this void...that cannot be filled.
What if I am told that its not worth it any more, its not happening, or its just not there?
What should I do in such a case?
Should I cry and lose all feeling like I did the last time?
Or should I be stronger and move on easily...?!

Maybe I should protect myself this time around, not get carried away and just slow down?
Just take it slow and steady...and not fall hard and flat!
But how does one control such emotions, such feelings, such expectation?
Should I block it in my head and heart?

But like my friend said so recently—life is short, give it a chance.
Maybe I will give it a chance, after all one never knows whats in store for us? So no matter how much we think, ponder and wonder, its all in vain....cause as they say its going to happen anyway...

Quite melancholy I feel right now...
I should snap out of it and be the happy person I am—or am expected to me..
sigh...such a burden expectation is!