Don't block it out, she said. Fight it, find the reason behind it.
But, I said, blocking it out is the best way I deal with it! The best way I ever will be able to deal with it, and it's the only way for me!
I don't want to bring back all the memories, all the pain, all the hurt, all the humiliation!
I simple want to block it all out! Block block block!
What is the point, I ask, in finding out the reason behind it, in analyzing it and understanding it. What is it going to achieve?
Is the analyzing and understanding in question going to make me feel better? Is it going to make the person who hurt me beyond words come crawling back to me, only so that I can make him feel the same way? Is it going to make things right for me again?
No! Its not going to achieve any of those things, all its going to do is make me think, make me wonder and make me cry.
So, Block!
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